Job 6-9

1.  Describe a time when you  wanted to question God.  What did you want to dispute or ask?

When has there been I time I DIDN'T want to question God is more like it!  My questions range between the silly (especially when I am reading Genesis)  like: If Adam and Eve were made perfect what were the sizes of there genitals (what is considered the perfect erect penis length or size breasts?) and did they poop? to the serious Why does God allow children to be raped/murdered/abused?  I come so far in my questions that I beginning having serious MAJOR doubts.  I even frequent a website written by an atheist from time to time when I JUST DON'T GET IT!!!  I often find my way groping and stumbling through the fog of doubt and just lay it all at the cross, praying and hoping that one day this will all make sense.  My faith often feels shaky at best and seems to get worse and not better as I have gotten older.  Also another reason I started this blog because if the Bible is true and I believe it what is stopping me from proclaiming it.  Why am I so fearful?  All I know is that this is not a question that I can answer in a day- or at least not TODAY.

2.  Do you feel closer to God or farther away from him when you question the unfairness of life?

I feel farther away from Him when I question the unfairness of life.  And because I bet you are curious this is the website I visit once in awhile because this person opens up whole lot of questions that I often think about but not many Christians seem willing to discuss:  500 Questions
I will not hide my doubts from my readers.  I have asked Jesus into my life.  I believe Him to be God.  This can't just be an "accident"- there is reason and purpose- however small- out there- somewhere.  I have to believe for my sanity.  God knows my heart.

3.  Have you asked Jesus to be your arbitrator so that you can enter eternity?  If you have not, will you do so now, so you can rest assured of an eternal life in Christ?  

Yes, I have asked Jesus to be my arbitrator so that I can enter eternity.  Again- God knows my heart.